September 21, 2017

Well today I was so tired didn’t get much sleep last night it’s been a sleep deprived week. My little one had a very leaky nose so I kept her home today from pre school. My husband took our son to school and I hung out with our little one.

I planned to cancel all my plans morning coffee with my bestie and Pure Smpower class and lunch with my good friend Chelsea. But my best friend Sara came by and brought me coffee and was so sweet bringing me a birthday card and Starbucks card for my birthday which is tomorrow.

My husband was nice enough to watch our daughter while I went to lunch with Chelsea. I had to pick up items from Target and since it was very windy I parked far away so no one would accidentlu ding my car doors with theirs.

When I go to out of Target I saw a shopping cart right up against the back right side of my car. Some inconsiderate bad mannered driver had put it there so I wouldn’t notice the huge dent they made in my car with theirs. Not happy at all that this is the low character society we live in.

Anyhow I didn’t let it ruin my day went home to show my husband and spend time with our daughter get kids bags packed as well as mine for the weekend . Then after my husband dropped our dog at his sitters and picked our son up from football practice.

Our kids sitter arrived and we left to dinner and a movie. We had a delicious dinner at PF Changs in Rancho Mirage, CA. Started with chicken lettuce wraps and the had a yummy spicy beef seshuan and brown rice.

We went to see The Kingsmen and it was good but a little weird but action packed throughout. I think I ate too much tonight I feel like an umpa lumpa.

So we returned home and I finished my packing put on my nightgown took some medicine for my ache throats also some turmeric and a sleep aid. Now I am going to watch a little tv and hopefully get a full nights rest.

Hope everyone had a great day and a wonderful weekπŸ™πŸŒ»πŸ‘πŸ˜΄πŸ€—

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September 19, 2017Β 

Today was a pretty nice day little one woke up early and my hubby took her out front to watch her shows and give me another hours rest. I got up made her breakfast for her dressed for school and he took her. 

I was hoping she wouldn’t cry when he left like she does with me but she did. I went to my Pure Barre class which was good but I feel like I wasn’t completely there. My mind was elsewhere. 

Afterwards I stopped home then went to get a coffee and get a manicure and pedicure for my birthday. That was nice πŸ‘πŸ» Afterwards I headed home to get stuff done and later my husband picked me up and took me to The California Pizza Kitchen I had a delicious half BBQ Chicken Chopped Salad and a lemonade. 

Afterwards we went to The White House  Black Market and got two pairs of pants and a cute top and belt for my Birthday. 

When we left there we rushed over to pick up our son from school they got back an hour early. I was so excited and happy to have him home he had a great time. 

We dropped him off at home and then it was time for my husband to pick up his new glasses at lens crafters. We looked for the ones I found awhile back when I got my new prescription but we didn’t buy any that day checked two lens crafters were unsuccessful. Went to sunglass hut found the Tiffany and Company Aviator glasses I wanted so we got those and took them to put my prescription in. 

I was pleasantly surprised when they told me I could pick them up in an hour in the past I’ve waited weeks for all my glasses. 

I took my son back when I picked them up so he could try on sunglasses at the sunglasses hut show me what he likes for his birthday next month. 

When we got home we had some pizza and garlic knots and kids had some Birthday cake. I didn’t have any room tonight will eat some tomorrow. 

Hoping to get some good sleep tonight.Hope everyone is having a great week and a good nightπŸ€—πŸŒ»πŸ‘πŸ™πŸ˜΄

September 17,2017Β 

Well we had a nice weekend my husband surprised us and arrived home last night. We had dinner at home watched movies as a family. 

Today we went to get items at Target got some coffee while we were there. Our dear friends Carol and Marcus came over for a visit it was great to see them. 

We then took car to get cleaned had lunch with kids at the mall and found our Halloween costumes. We got little one down for a nap and I got laundry and dishes done. 

We had a nice dinner at home kids went swimming and we watched Sleeping Beauty before getting the kids set for bed. 

Our son leaves for his field trip tomorrow morning we got him all packed up. Our daughter has picture day at her pre school. 

I will be going to Pure Empower in the morning after dropping her off. Then I will get rest of my errands done. Maybe be able to have lunch with my friend Chelsea.

I have a busy week ahead and my Birthday is this coming Friday. Hoping to see my friends this week and have a great Birthday. 

I will get packed for our weekend trip and also get our house all cleaned up. I’d like to make an appointment to get a facial and wax at Organic Glow Skin studio. I would also like to plan a girls day soon at Miramonte Spa it’s been a very long time. 

I need to make dentist appointments for me and the kids. I am so proud of how hard my son is working and how well he is doing in his new school. I am such a proud parent my little one is learning so much too she is so strong so intelligent and loving and yes sassy but what a blessing she is to us. I am so grateful to have our wonderful kids. 

They definitely drive me crazy but being a mom is the best job ever it’s a 24/7 stressful highly emotional job but most rewarding job I will ever have. Some days I don’t get a shower in or shave my legs or get all my errands done. My house doesn’t always look perfect. But my house always feels like a home and my kids always know their loved and safe .

I want to lead by example and try to show my kids how to be genuine, loving, kind faithful and always have positivity and hope and to work hard. I make mistakes everyday but I’ve worked on being less critical of myself. 

I feel out of shape and old and wrinkly but I know I am way harder on myself than what others see. I am working on getting physically emotionally and mentally stronger everyday. 

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend have a goodnight. πŸŒ™πŸ˜΄πŸ‘πŸŒ»

Saturday September 16, 2017

Enjoying weekend so far with my kiddos so proud of my son getting nearly all A’s on all school assignments thus far all 100%s and 1 B – on a quiz. 

My kids love the pool and had fun outside today although I wish I could get my daughter to stop pooping while we’re in the pool she wears swimmer pull up but it’s always a mess to clean her up after. 

My tummy has been a little upset today but otherwise feeling great πŸ‘πŸ» I miss going to Pure Barre on weekends. I still need to take us to Target to get Savannah some Jean shorts a comb and some groceries for us. 

We’ve watched Sleeping Beauty, Dirty Dancing and The little Mermaid. We went to Starbucks this morning and my little one got a chocolate chip cookie which turned out to be. Messy choice for the car but she’s too cute. 

I want to make some more yummy treats for the kids so will get some of the missing ingredients while at target. 

My Birthday is next week and I am hoping I get a chance to celebrate with our kiddos before we go out of town. Also hoping to get to see some of my friends too. 

When I woke up this morning had a hair dilemma put sponge curlers in my hair so I could wake up and go this morning. But one side was flat and other half super curly so I had to pull my hair up guess one side most of sponges fell out during night ugh. 

I’d like to be able to get out one night a week take some cooking classes or see my friends even get in a workout with a trainer.

Later today I should take my car to get washed and get our items at target my little one needs to nap when our movie is over.

Now that it’s cooling off I want to start hiking again soon. It will be nice in a few months when we don’t need to run the air. 

I’m looking forward to seeing the finished product when our dear friend Marla finishes quilt she’s making me out of my wedding dress and bridesmaids dress. 

I also want to have her make us a quilt out of Savannahs best first year baby clothes. That will be a precious keepsake. 

Well I hope everyone is having a great weekend 😎🌻🏑

September 15, 2017

I am very proud of my kids right now especially. They both have started new schools and have been doing such a great job. My toddler does cling a little when I drop her off but she loves her momma and within 5-10 minutes after I’m told she is full speed ahead playing and having fun.

My son started at junior high and we put him in a private school becuase we were unhappy with the public schools. I am so happy we did. He is so happy his grades are mainly all high A’s he is enjoying football there too and I love that he’s in an environment where students want to learn and teachers love to teach.

Mornings have been going good considering I’m not a morning person I am up and ready to go by 6 or 6:30 each morning. My daughter has been eating pretty good at breakfast she does try to get her brothers attention all morning while he’s trying to get ready and do chores and he’s great with her he adores her.

Today was the first morning she didn’t cry when we dropped him off at school. So that’s good she is growing up so much I look at pictures and watch videos of her from last year and it’s amazing how much she has grown and learned.

I am so blessed that my kids are so close with me and we love each other so much. I made them some strawberry jello with fresh strawberries and marshmallows inside it for after school treat.

I am getting laundry and dishes done and I will need to pick up our dry cleaning later on after I pick Brandon up. I wish I was at Disneyland The Halloween decorations ansd rides are officially open today.

My car isn’t in need of a bath I just need to clean it myself if I can hi so weekend been trying to make my monthly money last as long as possible. Hoping someohow I can still meet up with my friend for lunch Monday and other friend Thursday for coffee and not spend much.

I really wanted to be able to do a few things special for my birthday week. I did get a stitch fix box it was prett good liked the items just wish I had got shirts and dress I could wear bra with I am a 34 D so I don’t like going around with no bra.

I want my hair to look nice but I am hoping it starts growing longer I am also hoping my mid section will start trimming down more. One day I’d like to get my abs pushed back together after two pregnancies my stomach has severe diatisis recti hope I spelled that right.

I really needed to get my dental work done this week but now I will need to wait until next year unless I spend the money on here which is much more expensive.

I want to get the kids to the dentist and Brandon to the orthodontist to get his braces on. I am hoping we can make his 11th Birthday special we have been doing Disneyland trick or treat last two years but I think we missed the boat on getting tickets this year.

But I am sure we can hopefully figure out spending a weekend there with the kids for his Birthday. Possibly bring a friend for him or two as well.

My body is improving a lot I do wish I could go to doctor to get my stomach repaired though I’d feel so much better being able to look in the mirror wear a two piece swimsuit and more form fitting clothes without feeling awful.

going to get coffee is breaking my budget I added $25 to my card today but it will be gone in a few days. Oh well glad last nights Mexican lasagna dinner was a hit with the kids. Hoping for some pool and movie time with them after school today.

Hope everyone is having a great Friday πŸ™πŸŒ»πŸ‘

Cracks and ScarsΒ 

My insides feel exposed and raw and I feel unprotected and scared. Sometimes I don’t recognize myself. I had so many goals and dreams and such a positive happy demeanor. 

I once had confidence and felt good about myself . I battle depression and sadness and am insecure about opening up and letting people in. 

Right now I strive to get back to the strong woman I once was even stronger. I love and adore my family and I am proud to be a mom my kids are so great and I want to help them become strong confident intelligent independent people who are caring and love deeply. 

I want to keep working on myself and rebuilding my confidence and self esteem. I miss so much having a social life. Traveling, having passion in all aspects of life living every second to its fullest. 

I am thankful for those who notice my hard work and tell me they see a difference in my body I am so far off from my goal but encouragement and kind motivation helps so much. 

Seeing my kids excel and learn and soar brightens up my life their love makes me feel so blessed and lucky. I want to spend my time with people who are positive and who build me up not try to tear me down. 

When I was younger I had quite the social life but I have wounds that are deep from friends who truly hurt me and that makes it hard to trust. My heart is clearly strong I’ve been through lots of heartbreaks and come back stronger but when your such a devoted loving loyal trusting person it’s easy to do all the giving and not get that same love, friendship, loyalty from others. 

I pray every day and night that I can heal myself and start loving myself again as happiness starts with how you treat yourself because when you truly love and respect yourself you won’t allow others to disrespect you or hurt you. 

I have a lot to be thankful for and I have so much to live for. Sometimes you just need a hug and encouraging word and appreciation. I’ve  lost family memebers that went to be with the lord and I miss them everyday and I am scared of losing my aunt but just wish I had someone to talk to and has more emotional support during her fight with cancer which I hope and pray she wins. 

My daughter and son are nine years apart but love each other so deeply. I’m so glad and I hope that continues forever. I literally am uncomfortable even writing openly like I used to sometimes I feel like I am scared to show my emotions. I need to strengthen myself and know how vaulunle I am and that I am great and need to be me and open and not hide. 

I am hoping that my marriage will grow and strengthen and that what’s missing will all come into place it’s always hard on relationships when there is distance and your not under the sane roof . 

I need to get to sleep without help from sleep aids. I need to continue to work everyday and make sure my kids feel loved and aupported I want them to always feel they can tell me anything. 

Not looking forward to my birthday this year. Not sure if it’s just being older or just that it’s lost its greatness. 

I need to get some sleep that is an important aspect of mental and emotional and physical wellness I need proper sleep each night. 

Thank you for reading God Bless and goodnight to everyone πŸ‘πŸ™πŸŒ»πŸ˜΄πŸ˜˜

September 13, 2017

Well today started at 4am for me my youngest had a bad dream and wanted to snuggle with momma. I then had a bad dream about her so I even changed what I’d planned her to wear since she was wearing other outfit in my nightmare. 

Got the kids fed and out the door early I was way over dehydrated and felt awful. Was going to skip Pure Barre but I knew I’d regret that. So I dropped the kids at school and came home had more water . 

Headed to class it was a full class but very good I sweat like crazy and having been drinking water ever since. I still don’t feel great at all. 

I am trying to take it easy though I have some errands I need to do before picking up the kids. I’d like to be able to meet my friends for lunch or coffee but waiting until I have money in the bank on the 15th. 

I am hoping I enjoy my birthday this year every year I am one step closer to forty I will be 38 next week. My high school 20 year reunion is set for middle of October. 

I hope my kids are having a great day todayπŸ™ I am hoping for energy to carry me through today and this evening and hope for a good nights sleep. 

I wonder if I will be able to get my hair and nails done by my birthday maybe I can get it done day before and have a date night with my husband. 

My car is in need of a bath but we’ve had rains on and off past week so I am gonna wait one more day just in case. Debating what time I will pick up my youngest today before or after Brandon. 

I am still sore from my workout and still feel dehydrated. I may need a Gatorade for the electrolytes. 

My husband was home for a couple days but gone again. It gets lonely just glad my kids have a lot to keep me busy and always snuggle me. It would be nice to be surprised and have special things done for me sometimes. I miss getting flowers, love notes, love texts and calls. Hoping we will have some romantic time for our birthday trip. 

My son has his second football practice today. He took his school photos last week in curious to see if they do football photos. My daughter has her picture day next week. She has grown up so much and is so smart. 

I miss my Aunt I haven’t been able to see her since she moved away to be close to doctors and my cousin. I am hoping she will be here with us a lot longer with the help of her cancer treatments. 

Hope all of you have a great day my head is pounding I need to take some aspirin. 

HugsπŸ‘πŸ™πŸŒ»πŸ¦‹

September 12, 2017

Well yesterday was a crazy busy day and my son really put me through the ringer. His A in math dropped down to a C- because he told his teacher he forgot his homework. 

Then when he got home he said he must have lost his folder so o made him re Due all his assignments and told him he needed to be more mindful of his stuff and be organized.

He also informed me after I’d been at the school for 20 minutes that he had football practice and just to come back later didn’t give me a pickup time. I told him he needed to ask apparently he didn’t ask  his coach he told me 4pm which meant I had no time to go home etc so I waited  in my car. Then at 4:15 when I still didn’t see him I went in for him and found out Practice goes until 4:30pm. 

So he had a bunch to get done when we got home. I got Walle for my daughter and made us all dinner then watched that with her have her a bath and got her all set for bed. 

Then I went over my sons homework and made sure he did his chores. I was exhausted. 

Today we left the house at 7:10 am I had him to school by 7:30 am then I got my daughter dropped off. She is loving her new school and so am I . I absolutely love both my kids schools. 

So after that I raced home to have some cereal then headed to Pure Barre. I love our instructor Jenay she really motivates me and pushes us to strive to do better each workout. I was worried after my workout as I had two missed voicemails from my daughters pre school. 

I drove right over talked to the director who is so sweet and everything was all good and taken care of. So thrilled we’re at this school. So I raced home to take a rinse before all my errands. 

Went to Dicks sporting good bought our son football cleats and a mouth guard. Then went to Target to buy my daughter a thermist for school. 

Then I raced over to fill up my car with gas, then to the dry cleaners to drop stuff off. Then to Ralph’s for groceries and thank God they have a Starbucks there got one for lunch. Got all our groceries and raced home. 

Unloaded all the groceries and put away and then raced to my sons school to pick him up. He has been maintaining straight A’s and is back at it now that he turned in his math assignment. I hope he keeps this upπŸ™  

I got him gave him water I brought for him drove us home and got him working on his chores and homeowork. I’m taking a moment to myself to write this and drink a nice cold bottle of water before I head out to pick up my daughter. 

I hope everyone has had a wonderful day πŸ˜€πŸŒ»πŸ‘

September 10, 2017

Watched Cinderella with my little one and Cinderella 2 now that DVD player is hooked up. Kids watched Toy Story and I have been getting laundry and dishes going we had some green beans and Mac n cheese. Need to get kids all set for school tomorrow. Need to add all my sons football games and practices to calendar. 

Need to add in all calendar events for both Savannahs school and Brandons school. I am hoping to get to Pure Barre everyday this week I haven’t been able to make one since Thursday. 

Took kids in pool so they could burn off energy made a good dinner for kids and they have been eating pretty good. My little one took a small nap today O I could get some cleaning done. 

I take my little one in for her first day tomorrow after we drop Brandon off. I also need to drop money off to Brandons school for his science camp. 

We watched church and read the Bible before bed together. I am. Excited for tomorrow. 

September 8,2017

Well today was a good day very busy was running on only an hour or two of sleep but got the kids up we dropped Brandon off at school then Savannah and I went for coffee for me cake pop for her and a trip to the park. 

After that we had fun goofing off at home with Minnie Mouse and Elena of avalor toys  danced and read books watched only about 20 minutes of every movie we put on my daughter couldn’t make up her mind today lol. 

Then she helped me get wash going and clean house. Then we ended up stepping out for sandwhiches with my husband for lunch. 

Got her down for a nap the storm hit and was a doozy. It didn’t wake up my little one though. I went to go pick Brandon up from school. I have been so happy with my sons school. I’ve been trying to keep up so I know how all his classes are going and get all our voulenteer hours set. 

Later on we went back to school for an ice cream social our son went to hang with the older kids and had a blast and our daughter was enjoying the music and light show and glow sticks inside. She got quite messy from the ice cream and continued the fun food at home let her have. Corn dog and push pop and her milk. 

She definitely needed her bath tonight. Then she hung out read some bedtime stories and wanted me to sleep with her so I might be sleeping with her again tonight. 

Now I am able to unwind now that I have all my laundry done. I missed Pure Barre today so I hope to go tomorrow and Sunday. 

Hope everyone had a wonderful week and I wish you all a great weekend πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸŒ»πŸ¦‹