Power is strange thing most people don’t realize how much power their words and actions have. Thoughts are something you can actively choose to have positive or negative thoughts. It’s so hard for you to see this when your self esteem has been nearly destroyed by people and events in life. Power is taking that hurt and mending yourself using the sadness or anger as energy towards positive goals and a better life. I am learning to be proud of myself and be my own cheering section when I need it. I think that if your not giving up your control and power of your feelings and emotions you will gain a strength and self assurance you never had before. You need to realize when you don’t do something because someone else makes you believe you can’t you have them power. When you stay angry and bitter you give the person that wronged and or hurt you the power. I choose to have control over my thoughts my actions and feelings so my life can truly be mine. I am my hardest critic but I am getting better at giving myself a pat on the back when I need it. This is a day by day minute by minute process that is always needed. I remember when CAN’T wasn’t in my vocabulary. When I believed I could do anything I set my mind to. I am working on getting back there. I used to feel really good about myself inside and out and when the inside didn’t feel good at least the outside did. Now I remember that strong confident girl but that is not me anymore. I have a lot of blessings in my life a wonderful family and friends two amazing children. But I need to regain self esteem outside of the joy I feel of being a mother I need more identity then that to be whole and grow my self esteem back. The good thing is I know now the power is within me and I can do this.