Missing Lunch 

Well my toddler usually is the culprit when a meal is interrupted or ruined when we’re not at home. Today sitting outside restaurant with her in her car seat because she couldn’t behave rest of family inside hopefully still enjoying their meal. I am beyond stressed out by this behavior and feel very depressed. 

Guess I will just have a lean cuisine and feed her when we get home. I don’t get out much when we’re up here and this is stressful it’s easier dealing with her back home. I can get food cooked or get coffee and fast food if she’s not behaving. 

I am sad that others have to place their opinions when they don’t have my child.i just want to get back home and I don’t want to do anything else today. Don’t feel like going to the beach like we planned.

I am still upset enough about my Aunt cancer sucks and I am sick of seeing loved ones pass away. I haven’t been able to shave my legs while we’ve been here and it drives me crazy. 

I just want to feel happy and I am not happy at all right now. I hope we have a nice week just the four of us next week. My parents are spending one day with us for her birthday the day before actually. But I just want things to be fun and easy going. 

I just want her to be good at restaurants again but it’s been along time since she was easy. We’ve got lucky once or twice but it’s never easy. Now she’s napping in the back seat so I won’t get a break to get stuff done at home. 

I just want to eat or be getting stuff done that’s productive. But just sitting here while she naps and we’re not inside with everyone else. I need to go through house today see what we have and what we need I want us to be able to pack as little as possible when we come up here. 

I know most of clothes up here probably are too small for me now so I need to go through it all today since we leave tomorrow. I want to get all laundry and dishes done. We don’t have patio umbrella anymore so that’s on list of things we need to get. 

I really look forward to future when things are less stressful. I want things to ease up where my husband isn’t the only one taking care of every detail in all the business. He just doesn’t have any relief. 

Sad I can’t enjoy a meal with him. I love my daughter she’s just difficult in restaurants. I am hoping to get her all set with potty training and work on tantrums as well. I never have wanted my kids to ruin others dining or movie experiences so I just remove if they cannot behave. 

My kids are both great and I am a fantastic mother so if anyone wants to say something because I left a meal that’s  just life I guess I am not going to please everyone and I don’t have to or want to. 

I can’t believe that people that I’ve helped through hard times could care less to see how I feel or am doing while my loved one is dying. I look forward to being back Pure Barre. Well hopefully I am. Or stuck out here much longer. 

Published by 40fitmom

My Name is Jennifer .I was born and raised in California.I am the proud mother of two incredible children Brandon and Savannah.I enjoy trying new things,Outdoor adventures,new recipes, and travel, just to name a few.I hope to encourage others to try new things! I strive to learn as much as possible. I am on a journey to be my best self. Working out more drinking half my body weight in water. Meditating and journaling to find inner peace. I am working on my self esteem and have lots of goals I’m working towards. I cherish my family and friends and never take a single moment for granted.

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