So after spending today getting my spirits up after long couple of months battling my son grades and getting him on track. I was feeling pretty good 😊
But life knocked me on my ass today I went to pick up my daughter at 4:00pm and I talked to her teacher and I was completely deflated torn to shreds felt sad and disappointed in the situation and questioning what I could be doing better in my end.
Savannah was wonderful with me and my son ate well played well went potty for me twice before bedtime. I deck my aaa doing all I can to put my kids first.
They mean everything to me.I am sure it was just a fluke a couple of days of terrible two behavior but it bothers me when I feel my job as a mother or our household is questioned.
I am trying to unwind with a detox soak in the tub and facial mask. We love her school and they all love her so maybe I need to just enjoy my night before bed.
But considering how I set my schedule around my kids dance class and two birthday parties just for her alone this weekend she’s far from ignored. Yes she misses her dad when he’s away but she is used to him being away a lot for work.
I doubt she likes it but it’s what pays the bills so it’s not changing anytime soon. I would love it if we had my husband home all the time but it is what it is. This week might have been worse because he left for home and had to leave the very next day.
My son is thankfully at B honors which is the lowered he’s been so that’s not bad. I’m hoping he improves to A honors or gold leaf next report card.
I’d love to take time for me but Monday to Friday I can only do my classes at 8:30 or 9:45 that’s all that’s offered while kids are in school and if I bring her later to school that messed we th me getting to exercise which other than baths is my only me time .
I deserve to workout and I deserve to have some stress free time that’s not just cleaning running errands and cooking.
I need my workouts and baths and an occasional coffee or lunch date with a friend to keep me sane
. I still need to get the birthday gifts packaged up cards signed before I can relax and go to sleep. I am so deplete. This weather has sucked all week I like to let Savannah outside but been too cold and windy so I’m sure her not playing her energy out enough plays into her moods.
Well sorry for venting but I needed it so thank you for enduring it. More positive vibes from now on.😊🏡🙏