08-30-19

What a week! I am exhausted Brandon had supply drop off and meet and greet and 8th grade trip talk for parents on Monday. Savannah and I were at his school from like 12:30-4pm then we got some Starbucks.

Tuesday was Brandon’s first official day of eighth grade. Savannah and I met up with Sara at Starbucks. I enjoyed my visit but Savannah was not behaving well so we went straight home. We had football after we picked Brandon up from school we had just enough time for snack etc.

Wednesday I got my Chiropractor appointment finally the deep tissue massage was spent on my left hip the whole time. It’s out of alignment and extremely tight.

I got my first adjustment which as crazy but I slept great but as the massage therapist said I woke up extremely sore at around 4 am. Thursday I took Savannah to Get Air to meet up with some other kids and mamas .Afterwards we went by Starbucks got her an apple juice and me a green tea lemonade. Earlier I did get in a 15 minute peloton ride and a 10 minute Mediation and a 20 minute Yoga stretch session for my hips . After we had lunch we hung out I finished laundry before picking up Brandon then we went to get my spray tan and got Brandon ready for football.

Today after we dropped Brandon off we met up with my friend Sheri at Starbucks Savannah was a very good girl so I took her to get a manicure and pedicure then we went to look for shoes.

The rest of our day did t go as smoothly and by the time we picked up Brandon she was in full fit mode.So best part of my evening after all that was my bubble bath tired goodnight πŸ’€

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August 24, 2019

So this week we had football scrimmage. Football weigh in that my husband drove in for. We went to a few movies and had some family time.

Got two nights with my hubby home wasn’t enough. We got weeks and sometimes longer without seeing each other so it’s hard to properly connect and fulfill each other’s needs in such short times. Especially while doing all our parenting and work duties in the short span on time too.

Got some girl time with Savannah yesterday while the boys went out of town for football weigh in. It was nice love girl time.

I look forward to our family being under same roof every night hope that happens while we have both kids at home still. I never feel like my love cup of emotionally fulfillment support and intimacy is filled up anymore.

I can’t just do physical and not have a deeper connection. It’s so hard having distance with my husband I love him miss him a lot but it’s been the normal for way too long that he is gone more than he is home with us.

He works really hard for our family and we so love and appreciate him for that but it feels like he puts us on back burner while he is away at work and then when he’s here he still is not all in he’s worried about work etc.

I don’t know how to ensure we connect deeply consistently and take care of each other’s emotional and physical needs with this situation it is so frustrating to me. I’ve had a bad hip/ thigh injury for whole summer haven’t been able to get it fixed.

Makes physical intimacy very painful to point of tears yet I try every time I see my husband and it feels in appreciated and like it’s not enough. Which is very hurtful.

I am just going to concentrate on what I can control time with my kids preparing them for school and activities. Cooking healthy being healthy taking care of me.

I will also do my best to make sure my husband knows how much we love and miss him and appreciate all he does for our family. Hopefully my hip will get fixed as well so I am not in physical pain anymore.

Today Savannah and I enjoyed another nice girl day together. Brandon went to Magic Mountain with his friend for his birthday πŸŽ‚ they are not home yet.

Lately my periods have been very irregular spotting that I think is a period then being late or missing my period and then extra heavy I must seriously be at least pre menopause.

I’m going to try to keep dairy out of my diet for awhile and see if my stomach issues improve. Hope everyone had a great weekend! Goodnight πŸ’€

August 20, 2018

Last week I had a good week! Savannah had her last week st summer session. I took Brandon to see The Art of Racing in the Rain. I really enjoyed that movie and look forward to reading the book.

We had football practice every night. I got a chance to have coffee with my friend. We left Friday to go to June Lake we enjoyed four days there and left today. We bowled, took walks, went to the lake took Savannah fishing and to the park.

Had a lot of good meals with family and got to catch up with some friends as well. I’m glad while we were there my hubby was able to sleep well. He said he hadn’t slept the whole time he’s been up there which is terrible to hear. I don’t want him to lack sleep or have too much stress it’s not good for him.

We found out Savannah’s teacher and I’m glad I have kids ready for school only two items I still need for Brandon before he starts school next week.

We didn’t make it back in time for football practice so we unpacked and went to see a movie Where’d You Go Berna-Dette. Really enjoyed it and I have to book so will start reading that this week.

My chiropractor appointment got cancelled last week so I need to get one made ASAP. I also want to make a colonic appointment I’ve had stomach and bowel issues and have wanted to give that a try for years.

We are in major need of groceries so will be doing that first thing tomorrow. I also need a manicure and pedicure. I am looking forward to getting my hip feeling better so I can get back to my peloton workouts pure barre and all other physical activities I’ve been unable to do last couple of months.

Brandon has a scrimmage Thursday night. Jeff will be coming home with Savannah Friday. Miss them both already. We have so much going on and I am needing a good nights sleep 😴 goodnight πŸ’€

August 12, 2019

This past week I was able to finally finish reading ” Daisy Jones and the Six”. I got our Costco and Ralph’s groceries. I got rest of kids school supplies shoes and clothes.

I enjoyed time with kiddos by the pool and Savannah finished up her swim lessons on Thursday. No room in next session in time slot we needed.

So I’m working with her at home for now. Brandon’s doing a great job at football. I managed to make a chiropractor appointment I go in this week.

I also took some me time today and had lunch and a massage at the Miramonte spa. I still miss working out. Hoping to get back st it soon !

Brandon starts school on the 26th so trying to soak up our last days of summer together. Savannah starts on the 04th so I will have a little more time to hang with her.

Ready to see my hubby looking forward to our June Lake trip😊 Hope everyone has had a great Monday! I’m going to bed so sleepy 😴

August 06, 2019

I have been extremely stressed and even depressed past two days. I have nearly everything done for kids back to school.

But I still need to do Costco and grocery run and money is right. I also haven’t seen a doctor yet about my hip/ thigh issues and it’s been bothering me over two months it’s overwhelming being home just me and kids for so long and not being able to get to a doctor.

Also super frustrating that I completed all my brokers stuff and I do not have a test date mainly because I haven’t had an income from real estate since I had my daughter.

Now my real estate license is about to expire so more tests which is annoying since I should have taken brokers test by now. I mean I have had my license 21 years now sheesh.

I need to find a doctor as my main general practitioner. I haven’t been to the doctor since 2016 for a physical and they wouldn’t do a Pap smear or a mammogram.

I’m turning 40 next month and want a comprehensive physical as well as Pap smear and mammogram. My hip issue needs to get figured out as well it’s kept me from daily exercise which has affected my weight and I believe is also causing me to be depressed.

I also cannot sit Indian style or move my leg comfortably for my bikini waxes being intimate is extremely painful so that’s not worked as well which is quite frustrating.

My son being in a relationship at a young age is definitely stirring up a lot of emotions for me. I’m happy for him but also not wanting him to get hurt or make bad choices. Making me remember highs and lows of young love. Also I see so many changes in him and I do not want to be cast aside this early it’s one thing when your child is out of the house and seriously dating or married.

This is stressful to me and I’m trying to just relax and go with it and trust my sons choices and in his love for his family. My poor sweet girl has eczema again and it’s miserable trying to get it under control.

I was able to get my sons school schedule and all his school supplies. Got Savannah’s school supplies as well as backpacks for kids shoes for Brandon and lunch box for Savannah.

My car is running on empty light cans on tonight after football practice need to fill up in the morning. I have not been doing enough self care. Working out is something I love and I miss it so much.

My self esteem has really taken a hit this summer I think just my 40th Birthday looming. Not getting much time with my husband. Losing my workouts have really messed with me.

I miss my bestie we haven’t seen a ton of each other this summer life has been so vita for both of us. I need to get some sleep 😴 I hope everyone is having a less stressful week πŸ™πŸ‘πŸ€—

August 04, 2019

Well this past week Savannah started back at swim lessons and has been moved up again. Brandon has football practice every night he’s happy to be back at it.

I got a facial done on Wednesday felt good hydro facial and derma plane combination makes my skin feel silky smooth.

Thursday I had a crazy day but got all Brandon’s school uniforms a mani pedi. Had so much at the dry cleaners since I saved up items for like three months before dropping off ugh.

Saw Sheri on Thursday for lunch and Sara on Friday for coffee. Took Brandon to orthodontist appointment on Thursday.

My left hip and thigh still in pain been over two months now. I need to go to the doctors. I’ve been having spasms and pain. Not been able to workout. Limited mobility of my left side.

Savannah went to dance on Saturday. I need to get Brandon’s school schedule and go to Costco and make doctors appointments.

We got to see our friends Tara and Sierra today which was nice. I enjoyed time with kiddos last two days at home. I’ve been constipated for this past week not sure why fiber isn’t helping.

I want to make a colonic appointment this week as well. Brandon’s his girlfriend is back in town so I will make sure he gets to see her this week. Woke up a couple hours ago and can’t get back to sleep.

Time to try to get back to sleep hope everyone is sleeping well! Have a great week! πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ‘