August 06, 2019

I have been extremely stressed and even depressed past two days. I have nearly everything done for kids back to school.

But I still need to do Costco and grocery run and money is right. I also haven’t seen a doctor yet about my hip/ thigh issues and it’s been bothering me over two months it’s overwhelming being home just me and kids for so long and not being able to get to a doctor.

Also super frustrating that I completed all my brokers stuff and I do not have a test date mainly because I haven’t had an income from real estate since I had my daughter.

Now my real estate license is about to expire so more tests which is annoying since I should have taken brokers test by now. I mean I have had my license 21 years now sheesh.

I need to find a doctor as my main general practitioner. I haven’t been to the doctor since 2016 for a physical and they wouldn’t do a Pap smear or a mammogram.

I’m turning 40 next month and want a comprehensive physical as well as Pap smear and mammogram. My hip issue needs to get figured out as well it’s kept me from daily exercise which has affected my weight and I believe is also causing me to be depressed.

I also cannot sit Indian style or move my leg comfortably for my bikini waxes being intimate is extremely painful so that’s not worked as well which is quite frustrating.

My son being in a relationship at a young age is definitely stirring up a lot of emotions for me. I’m happy for him but also not wanting him to get hurt or make bad choices. Making me remember highs and lows of young love. Also I see so many changes in him and I do not want to be cast aside this early it’s one thing when your child is out of the house and seriously dating or married.

This is stressful to me and I’m trying to just relax and go with it and trust my sons choices and in his love for his family. My poor sweet girl has eczema again and it’s miserable trying to get it under control.

I was able to get my sons school schedule and all his school supplies. Got Savannah’s school supplies as well as backpacks for kids shoes for Brandon and lunch box for Savannah.

My car is running on empty light cans on tonight after football practice need to fill up in the morning. I have not been doing enough self care. Working out is something I love and I miss it so much.

My self esteem has really taken a hit this summer I think just my 40th Birthday looming. Not getting much time with my husband. Losing my workouts have really messed with me.

I miss my bestie we haven’t seen a ton of each other this summer life has been so vita for both of us. I need to get some sleep 😴 I hope everyone is having a less stressful week 🙏🏡🤗

Published by 40fitmom

My Name is Jennifer .I was born and raised in California.I am the proud mother of two incredible children Brandon and Savannah.I enjoy trying new things,Outdoor adventures,new recipes, and travel, just to name a few.I hope to encourage others to try new things! I strive to learn as much as possible. I am on a journey to be my best self. Working out more drinking half my body weight in water. Meditating and journaling to find inner peace. I am working on my self esteem and have lots of goals I’m working towards. I cherish my family and friends and never take a single moment for granted.

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