July 23, 2021

Still stuck living at motel even though our escrow finally closed over 9 days ago since January I boxed up out old house lived out of a suitcase and I still don’t know where all my things are still am not able to feel settled. Miss my bed kiss having room to hang up my clothes and have drawers for other stuff miss my kitchen abs back yard so much. We have no privacy here it’s been torture and now still no date to move in our furniture get paint and floors in which is really too much to tak. It’s hard enough to have hour long waits in over crowded only grocery store abs not be able to get staple items and know can’t get them delivered and it’s either a 6 hour round trip to get them or a 14 depending if we go to Reno or to plan desert where we used to live. I have been extremely depressed for. Botha I have been very patient and have uprooted me and kids so we could be with my husband. Savannah hasn’t been settled since she came up here in October I need to get her in a home that’s ours and where we can fully unpack have all our things have a routine etc. I miss my beat friend everyday I miss having a lot of the good restaurants and nail salon and so much more nearby. Definitely things that was so great to have especially when need to de stress I don’t have anyone here to help me de stress or anywhere to go to chill out abs be happy accept bowling but that’s as a group we go and so I am usually still catering to others and I wish we went more often. We never go out on lake been wanting to enjoy that with pontoon since I first came up here in 2011 and yet we’ve never done it. I’m sad my daughter doesn’t have gymnastics or dance classes here that she can’t take swim lessons at civic center anymore. Sad she doesn’t have catechism classes here to take she’d be taking them at her catholic school back in desert if we had t moved. Kids start school in 27 days and I feel so stressed I feel like I’m gonna drop dead of a stroke or heart attack. Already been dealing with Bella palsy for over a month going on 40 days I am healing nicely now but that was brought on by stress. My anxiety is horrible I don’t get good sleep my body feels like someone beat me like a piñata every day. I’ve put on a smile and done all I can each day to find the joy getting keys to our house was supposed to be my light at end of tunnel but since we can’t live there and nothing is being done to get us in there before kids start school and I have no key to put mailbox worried about not getting packages as all this goes on is stressful too. Our dog has been dealing with a skin irritation for months which means many vet visits and that’s expensive and I just want him to heal up I am sure he feels displaced and wants a stable home too maybe his skin issues is from stress like I have stress. I’m annoyed that even though everyone around here is vaccinated and no one has worn masks since june 15 even when at Disneyland Disney hotel and everywhere else we’ve been for months other than hospital we haven’t worn masks they want to make kids wear masks at school again which is bad for them and can create health issues as well as psychological detriment to their long term development. I’m done venting sorry if this has been a downer post my pictures will make up for it as we have had moments of sunshine and happiness I just needed to let this out so I could have a weight off and breathe for a moment. So thank you to anyone and everyone who made it through my un cheery post.

Published by 40fitmom

My Name is Jennifer .I was born and raised in California.I am the proud mother of two incredible children Brandon and Savannah.I enjoy trying new things,Outdoor adventures,new recipes, and travel, just to name a few.I hope to encourage others to try new things! I strive to learn as much as possible. I am on a journey to be my best self. Working out more drinking half my body weight in water. Meditating and journaling to find inner peace. I am working on my self esteem and have lots of goals I’m working towards. I cherish my family and friends and never take a single moment for granted.

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